THE STORY
Saturday, August 19, 2006
After the break-up with iMRAN I thought of being bisexual..
Ala maybe because of the "give-up on guys" bullshit
But yea I GIVE-UP!!!!!!!!!!!!
I can't help it that I dont find anyone of the same sex attractive
or worse still sexually attractive..yucksss!!!
Not even a soul!!!!!
So much for the bisexual bullshit la Aini!
I swear I am a hetero!!
After a very long time..
I think I am finally having a crush (on a GUY!!! The Library Guy)
As in a serious one..I guess
No!! I think it's infatuation..
No!! I think it's a serious crush
No!! I think I can't figure it out...
Sometimes I think he is
- such a sweet-talker that I wanna suck out his tongue like chupa chups
- so sweet that I wanna eat up his head
- so nicely dressed and so concern abt his skin that I think he is a homo
- so annoying that I wanna "pop" him like a rugby ball
- so tall that I can climb him like a ladder
- so obsess with his bike that I assume while he masturbate
he even wonder if his bike is clean/shiny enough
(okay ew!!ew!!ew!!)
- so well-mannered that I think his parents must have CANE him like
fuck if he didn't say "thank you" or "please" when he was a kid
- so "Cina" that I can imagine him dancing para-para on his bed
- so systematic that he arrange his shirt according to
the date of purchased - so nicely built, that I wanna grab his butt (oh yea!)
- so law abiding that he never go beyond 90km/hour on his bike
- so merepek cause he eat alot of kerepek.....wtf
(okay run out of ideas......................)
Sometimes I find myself thinking about him and I wonder why.
May be I just find him sweet
May be he might be "it"
May be I miss him
May be..ouh well the "MayBe" thingy will just carry on and on
I don't know to stop thinking about him or just to carry on
What if I am one of the hot stuff (ok super perasan-ing!!)
that he ask out to catch a movie with his buddies
What if my presence means nothing significant to him
or worse still means nothing..
Ok I think I am f_cking messing with my brain!
and I THINK my only problem is that
I CAN'T SWALLOW MY PRIDE TO TELL HIM
and I think for now I rather hold on to my pride
Oh! God I hope what I am doing is right...........
Ainnie J re-living Saturday, August 19, 2006