THE STORY
Thursday, March 31, 2005
Now I realize y bds ruggers are so attach to the sport 2 an extend nothing else matter..
if I were dem I'll do the same thing..
Ainnie J re-living Thursday, March 31, 2005
Adilah read my blog n i think she pissed or whatever it is..she mention shamira nye namer 4 god knws y...sham knw her since pri 2 n sham knws her really well...i told sham abt the situation n sham got the pic so clearly within mins..as she use to hav this kinda of situation b4 wit her..i am like haha y am i not at all shock..well sham taught me a good lesson not trust any one n as for adilah..she said she can trust her..but not abt a certain issue..so she taught me to b careful with what i share with adilah..she mention something abt its alrite 2 b freinds with adilah but try not 2 get her involved in my personal issue or hers..just remain friends..haha i think i can c clearly what jazren is doin haha..thats y they reamin friends...n simply friends..n no problem..aahh no i see the picture..when she tag me all those msgs after reading my blog..at first i wonder what shud i do..but anyway i saw it coming.. so i think just ignore..n in school just talk if she talk to me n learn my lesson from sham.. it is an irony to hear sham who knws her really well says something like that..Adillah thinks i am a drama queen..i am like wow no one ever said me that.. plus y i even bother to write abt her in the first place..i am like warn by pple not 2 get 2 involved with her yet i still do..thinking she wont do much harm.. plus pple like abaish n sum others ask me y did i even dare 2 write abt all these stuff when i knw she might stumble into it..in my deffence well its my dairy n it tells what i go thru..so what do they expact out of it..haha n abaish i will take your advice..
Ainnie J re-living Thursday, March 31, 2005
Tuesday, March 29, 2005
Adilah came back to school today..after god knws how many days of not being in school..she came back all new..with this new look..showcasing her new attitude..it sord of impress me a lil..but not the triplet..gosh the have strong personality..they are not easilyd eceive..they were like...hhmm..tgk aje la..i just kept quite..i talk to her as per usual but was not willing to share abt anything private or personal..i also didnt make any eye contact when i talk to her...I heard her braging to Jazren abt how she hav revised her first 4 chapter of bio..n how hard she have studied for her current bio topic..i dont knw what she was trying to tell the rest when she sord of brag abt it..plus she told the whole class abt how she hav quit smoking being some one who cares for humanity...I recommended her the nicotine inhaler..that thing is suppose to help smokers to quit..during the start of the day she came in the class i just walk pass her as if she was invisible then i turn talking to shamira helping her to go thru her stuff cos she tot she lost her purse(n she didnt)..suddenly when we were talkin she cut thru us n ask shamira to tag along with her..shamira was like huh nak buat ape..den shamira continue talkin to us..i think she sord of get the message n walked away...den i need not do my 2.4run but they had cos they failed..i think i was a sad thing coz they said almost everyone ignore her...but things got betta sum how...putting myself in her shoe..(eventhough i am still mad with her for manupulating me)..i will definately realise how hard it is to gain sum one trust back.. i dont knw how is she ever gonna do it but i bet she wld b able to...if she continuing being like what she is now..haha all the best "mate"..may god b with ya..
Ainnie J re-living Tuesday, March 29, 2005
Friday, March 25, 2005
Well over the holidays.. I've been so beyond ok..Manage to catch up with great peeps like neelu, farris n ocok..gosh they have been really nice to me since the break-up.. plus supportive.. n the best part will b not seeing imran's face.. that really helps a lot.. well not until school reopen when I meet him.. well over the holidays on the Monday adilah this manipulative classmate of mine told me n faezah on the way home from Ikea (for project work) that She sord of asked imran whether he will go out with me "if" she pays for everything n imran said no to her so she told me like a sarcastic no..duh uh..n I was terribly offended by that.. so I called imran n told him that he is the meanest man for as long as I care n guess what he said he denied.. I was damn mad at him but then on the Sunday I called him back saying that I am sorry coz I was mad n angry n usually when people are angry then tend to say things that they might not mean it.. so I said sorry to him n we talked as a friend perfectly as for him he said he won't say such terrible things about me as adilah has picture it to me.. I was glad no feeling came back.. we talked just simply as a friend asking how each other was like catching up sord of stuff.. so we very alright.. then on Monday I told adilah that I told imran about what she said on the train on our way back from Ikea.. And lo n behold guess what she did she cut in thru n said "eh please eh aini if u wanna fight with imran don't get me involved.." First sign of guilt.. Then I said "hey I haven't finish my story.." then she cut in again n said that "hey I think u misunderstood what I said.." I am like 'hey what the fuck I have not finish my fucking story' ..n she then said "hey I did not say anything like that!!" loudly knowing imran was near us n that he cld hear us loud n clear..n in my heart I was like "Oh! Pure betrayal!!!".. she turn around n rolled her eyes as sign of whatever toward me..showing the rolling eyes to imran making it so clear to him..I turn around making this clear to imran I said loudly to her "excuse me did u just rolled your eyes on me..no one just rolled her god damn eyes on me..oh u bloody swine u slut u bitch.." n she thinks I was joking n she laugh saying "relax ar aini what sia" in a very jovial way..she walk off I turn at imran and said "didn't u just heard that didn't u realize how manipulative this woman is n she behaves as she is your best girl friend around this class?!"...imran just stare at me blankly..like a plain jane or may b tarzan..that night I called him and told him about everything that has happen I told him clearly "hey this woman is manipulating us n gods knows what she say or do next to manipulate us"..n imran was like "hey aini I don't care..i simply don't care abt this"..i am like hey so much for friendship treaty that u offered me...he cock up some lame reason y he has to hang up I wasn't interested to hear what the reason was so I just said give me a call back n he still hasn't till today..ouh so much for his n her friendshipas for pretending as if i am the only nice girl ard in the class for her giving me a pendant..argh thats so drama..well it just give me reason to hate them when I don't..I am so okay being their friends not until this happen.. friends do not allow people to manipulate the situation n the so called friends imran..like how neelu n i help each other thru when this well like manipulative woman manipulate us..as for adilah after how she manipulate me n my situation with imran.. I refuse to do anything or take any form of revenge or do any confrontation..because as for her case..revenge doesn't seems enough for me but a slow painful retribution by God will do just fine wait till the days when her sins will catch up with her n she will turn into the devil like the tattoo on her back.. that will b the day when Almighty God show his mukjizat to her...
Ainnie J re-living Friday, March 25, 2005
Saturday, March 12, 2005
okay i am so screw..i dont knw how to move on or not every other time when i have this spirit to move on n b a stronger person..here come someone who make me think how patheticly nice imran "was"...how he used to b soo much in "love" wit me...when those pple come ard the spirit i build up 2 forget imran will simply dies off...n i start to think abt him..n i hav 2 start all over again..aww this is so shitty i wanna move on i dont knw how...everytime if he is not in class..movin on will b an ez task..when he is ard i will always curi2 2 look at him..n when i c him..i juz like wanna run and hug him den when i stare into his lips i juz wanna kiss him all over...n when i c his butt i juz wanna grab it haha kk skip tt part..then there is farris..he is nice n stuff..but i dont knw...imran is 2 special 2 b replace..n farris is like super duper nice..i dont think he ever deserve some one like me...i dont think imran will b replace..mayb coz no one has his eyebrows no one has his white chipped off tooth..den no one is as diff as he is...n no one has his special loveable mom n brother..n no one is as gentle n tender as he is...i dont knw..but den juz now he makes me feel so humiliated..we chat on msn n stuff ar den i say..bb..gd nite..happy holidays "dear"..den u wont believe wat he said..he said..kk u 2 aini..he said "aini"..like wtf rite...so malu kan..eeww i feel so dumb..i hav to move..i hav to move on..i hav to move on..but i have one lil problem i am in love wit him even after wat he did...shit...!! i think i am so fucked up!
Ainnie J re-living Saturday, March 12, 2005
Sunday, March 06, 2005
WOW...my relationship with Imran is so more then over..yar we ended the whole love story just like that...haha its so weird..but i think i am happier guess he was rite end the suffering..gosh i dun knw what 2 feel toward him..hate him 4 ending this whole thing or be happy that its finally over..haha yar no idea at all but we reamin as caring n commited friends..wow whats up wit that..well like most have said it..its abt time 4 us to move on...hey guess wat i even 4get how to flirt..ya so what...well farris is here 2 say...but what the hell in am so not in the mood to start another love story..i guess my dream of marrying my childhood sweetheart is sooo not goin to happen like duhhh...hahaha so lame..well few thing that i am gonna miss abt my shit with imran wld...first his cute wonderful mom..second his hugs n kiss third..his hot ass hahahaha gosh this is sooo gross...well i think its betta 2 end now..rather then like abg naz n sharifa..10 years..hahaha wat the fuck man...hope dad will recover soon...n as 4 me....haha i am working hard 2 get into temasek poly bizness sch..n do my law course...den after tat..LONDON HERE I COME AGAIN!!
Ainnie J re-living Sunday, March 06, 2005