THE STORY
Saturday, March 12, 2005
okay i am so screw..i dont knw how to move on or not every other time when i have this spirit to move on n b a stronger person..here come someone who make me think how patheticly nice imran "was"...how he used to b soo much in "love" wit me...when those pple come ard the spirit i build up 2 forget imran will simply dies off...n i start to think abt him..n i hav 2 start all over again..aww this is so shitty i wanna move on i dont knw how...everytime if he is not in class..movin on will b an ez task..when he is ard i will always curi2 2 look at him..n when i c him..i juz like wanna run and hug him den when i stare into his lips i juz wanna kiss him all over...n when i c his butt i juz wanna grab it haha kk skip tt part..then there is farris..he is nice n stuff..but i dont knw...imran is 2 special 2 b replace..n farris is like super duper nice..i dont think he ever deserve some one like me...i dont think imran will b replace..mayb coz no one has his eyebrows no one has his white chipped off tooth..den no one is as diff as he is...n no one has his special loveable mom n brother..n no one is as gentle n tender as he is...i dont knw..but den juz now he makes me feel so humiliated..we chat on msn n stuff ar den i say..bb..gd nite..happy holidays "dear"..den u wont believe wat he said..he said..kk u 2 aini..he said "aini"..like wtf rite...so malu kan..eeww i feel so dumb..i hav to move..i hav to move on..i hav to move on..but i have one lil problem i am in love wit him even after wat he did...shit...!! i think i am so fucked up!
Ainnie J re-living Saturday, March 12, 2005