Confused and scattered,
I'm neither here nor there,
my mind wanders,
yet nothing i feel.
I hide myself from you,
protect myself,
not wanting to feel the pain again,
I've built a blockade.
Bricks and concrete,
Steel and bolts,
yet i lack the support needed,
I could soon tumble.
Its an image i portray,
a false security,
I do not need you, yet i may,
Please help me open up.
Tear these walls down,
wash the foundation away,
join me in this place,
Ill let u in if you try.
You seem so far,
so distant from here,
I open my mouth to call your name,
nothing but breath escapes.
I dont quite understand,
then again im not trying,
scattered and confused,
i'm neither there nor here.