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2008-02-18T20:07:00.002+08:00

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http://ainniejoe.wordpress.com/

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Busy

2007-05-28T18:32:00.000+08:00

I've been really been busy with school..

I have yet to develope my Thailand pics and of course the April Babies Birthday celebration pics..aww man sch has been keepin me busy like no body's business.. the only time that i get to eat chill pill will be every friday..like seriously LEPAk.....ew wht a word...

Schoooool...hmmm the only thing that I can greatful abt is to have good looking pple in class....

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

My Day At Work Part 2

2007-04-15T21:59:00.000+08:00

Waitress (me) : So what do you intend to do tomorrow?

Hotel Guest : I think we are going to the zoo

Waitresss (me): Didnt you just tell me that tomorrow is your birthday

Hotel Guest : Yup

Waitress : No offence. But if you dont really like animal that much..I think it sound rather depressing

Hotel Guest: Oh Man now that you say that..I think it is depressing

Waitress : Oh you can like sooo tell me abt it man...

With this kinda attitude...and if my boss were to knw abt it...I might get fired soon...Lets just hope she wont get knw abt this..

My Day At Work

2007-04-14T23:10:00.000+08:00

At work today.....

Hotel Guest : If Paris Hilton were to be here, in Singapore, where do you think she wld prolly go?

Waitress(me) :Sorry Sir! I cant think of anything bimbotic rite now. But when I do I will surely get back to you as soon as possible

For Honour And Glory

2007-04-13T00:34:00.000+08:00

Sometimes I dont recongnise my own face
I look inside my eyes and find disgrace

My little white lie tells a story
I see it all, it has no glory

I tot I found love but now I wonder if it is a disgrace
(to feel that 'Love' for you or
is it a white lie that I push myself to believe)

I wonder if it is right to be glorious
To put my pride before my 'love' for you

Now I wonder if it is really in me
To save my ego and set you free

But my soul says,
Thats how things were meant to be

_______________________________________

Its not like me but I'm satisfied with myself
To be able to put my Pride before my Emotion
To stand strong when its time to cry
To feel numb when its time to sob

As History have taught me
When One do something that involves One's Pride
It is for One's "Honour and Glory"
To feel loved has never been part of the story

Well may be not now

Quick Update

2007-04-12T12:17:00.000+08:00

Well, one whole semester I didn't blog......I kinda feel really terrible abt it.
Now I will try to blog as often as I can. I just realise this space is my sweet escape to my so called hectic life.

So for the whole time that I miss out..Let me try to give u'all a quick update:

Last semester (Year 1.2) was pretty awesome. Not that I am proud of my grades but life got betta in sch. Way Betta!
Daddy survive a major operation. It was one of the worst stage of my life knwing he can go anytime and to see him suffer so much (knwing that there's nothing I can do abt it). Now he is living life with 5 mths of Medical Leave.
I went back to being a really hard-headed feminist (and no! Hannan I'm not gay). I've been alil bit too friendly lately, I guess the time has come again for me to be a loner that I was meant to be
The Library Guy.........hmmm we got closer both physically and emotionally. Randomly, he called me up one night and told me that he is not ready for a relationship. Like hello!!! do I look like the girl who used to date Imran's?! Come on man! that AJ is soo last season.It is sad how we can connect so well but don't understand what is it that we want from each other. He says something and his action shows the otherwise. To make matter worst, I also have no freaking idea what is it that I want from him. Guys like him, trust me they are just too good to be true.
As for this part of my life I guess I'm cluessless
Currently, I'm busy doing this "room makeover" thingy with my mum. Oh ya its my room by the way
I am going to turn 18 soon. like really soon.Honestly, I dont knw what to feel. Happy? Excited? Or just feel old..??
I bump into Naj the other day. I really wanna catch up with her.....soon I hope

From now on wards I will try to update my blog as often as I can.
I CANT BELIEVE IT..I ACTUALLY MISS BLOGGING

Hey Mama

2006-10-22T04:08:00.000+08:00

I can feel the differences between us. The differences and the ego, was so much bigger then the kitchen we were in. In the naked eyes you can see her in her sarong and her somewhat almost nice blouse and I was in my FBT shorts and my not so new t-shirt.

She is getting her caffeine from the usual decaf coffee as for me; I was getting mine from my usual semi flat coke light.

The differences weren't just about the way we dress, the way we talk or even the food we eat daily. There's more to it. She grew up listening to some rock 'n' roll music and surviving the e'peace era. Whereas, I grew up listening music from the Internet and watching movies from VCD are so yesterday. The differences. It is so much bigger and so much more significance than what we realize.

However, the similarities are just much more significance than the differences. To an extend that it overshadows the differences. Something like the hardheadedness that is harder than some rock. The DNA we share. The shopping genes she passes down to me. The similar bimbotic style kinda act that comes randomly. The similar style of sarcasm remarks we make to people.

I am well aware that I turn out to be somewhat an ordinary person. Not the nicest person around I do admit. But to have her raising me and become the person that I am today.. I just got say...... I thank you for everything and I blame you for nothing.

I am not really good with words. But I guess a lil help to help to express myself better will mean no harm... I hope this song from Kanye West will help you all understand what I am talking about.

I wanna tell the whole world about a friend of mine
This little light of mine and I'm finna let it shine
I'm finna take yall back to them better times
I'm finna talk about my mama if yall don't mind

Seven years old, caught you with tears in your eyes
Cuz a nigga cheatin, telling you lies,
then I started to cry
As we knelt on the kitchen floor
I said mommy Imma love you till you don't hurt no more
And when I'm older, you aint gotta work no more
And Imma get you that mansion that we couldn't afford
See you're, unbreakable, unmistakable
Highly capable, lady that's makin loot
A livin legend too, just look at what heaven do
Send us an angel, and I thank you

Hey Mama
I wanna scream so loud for you, cuz
I'm so proud of you
I know I act a fool but,
I promise you I'm goin back to school
I appreciate what you allowed for me
I just want you to be proud of me

Forrest Gump mama said, life is like a box of chocolates
My mama told me go to school, get your doctorate
Somethin to fall back on, you could profit with
But still supported me when I did the opposite

Now I feel like it's things I gotta get
Things I gotta do,
just to prove to you that
You was getting through.....

It don't gotta be Mother's Day, or your birthday
For me to just call and say...
Hey Mama, I love you......

Hey Mama
You know I love you so, I never let you go
I wrote this song just so you know,
no matter where you go, my love is true.

Happy "21st" Birthday Mama

Listen to the song with the thought of your mama and all the sacrifices she have done for you even before you were born.

Hey Mama By Kanye West

At the end of it I realise that I am missing...

2006-10-15T01:13:00.000+08:00

So school is going to start in a week. The remaining of the holiday, I am just gonna make full use of it since I have been busy working.

Saturday: break fast with family members from both maternal and paternal side.
It was a great turn out. Though some of the invited ones didn't turn up but theres's 'replacement' to join in the fun.

I just can feel the love around me that night.

The missing.

The catching-up.

The bitching. (Of course I won't capture anything for this part )

Theres many more that I didn't have the chance to capture, but I guess you know how it feels like to be close to your very dear ones.

That night was so full of joy for me. I don't know why. May be cause I simply miss every single one of them. From my lepak granny to the cutie pie Aqi. Everything just give me the reason to smile. From the "educational talk" by Abang Long, to the eavesdrop of kakak nor's and cik leman "debate" and then to Aqi semi-baby talk.

Aqi

To end the day on happy note, I meet Library Guy. When I was with him, I was actually reflecting on how bad the week started for me. From the "infertile" incident to the incident where by this money face pussy ass nigga tried to "rob" us of our own money.

For the week to end like this...man! theres nothing more I wld ask for..catching up with my family then meeting my dear "friend-in-benefit" for some chat...okay no la... my good/close friend and it's not "benefit-ing". I guess it's "appreciating".Feeling the bliss.

(And!!! This time round I didn't sneak out of the house to meet him...)

When we were chatting, I kept on picturing us seating by River Thames with the view of the Tower Bridge. Appreciating autumn. I don't know why would I be picturing us in London in order to be comfortable. But I tot that would be the best place to have our midnight chat. The scenery. The 'sound' of the water. The smell. The weather. The type of building that surrounds us.

By the river.

And then I realize that I am actually missing London. River Thames to exacts. I don't know why. But right now I just want to be there, in London by River Thames. Doesn't really matter with who. Any one wanna join?

The view wld be something like what I've seen before....

(Me & Umar winter 2004)

My Friday the 13th

2006-10-13T00:35:00.000+08:00

My Friday the 13th is soooo not scary la! Mia and I bake Fadilah brownies. We kinda miss her birthday so we make it up to her by baking her brownie and treat her at any restaurant of her choice. She chooses Fish & Co.

Well before that, when we were at work, Mia and I was sooo looking forward to go back to my place and bake the brownies. Since it's the weekend, we were not like "Thank God its Friday" we were more of "God damn it! Finally its Friday! THANK GOD!!!!"

Then I think Mia got high. High AT WORK! For God knows what reason la. So she has this huge crush on this guy. Though he is only 23 but sial la he is married!! Hahaha imagine, he got married at the age of nineteen! Like what the fuck kan?! Well yea that is not the main point. I swear to god when mia gets high, she is in her own LALA LAND with God knows who. Guess what! Without realizing she flirt with that guy in her most seductive voice AND not realizing every one was actually staring at her. When I say everyone its freakin everyone including the French manager, Elise!!! She was like "BByeeeeeeee g...!!!" then in my heart "Mia say some one else's name!! Don't fucking embarrass yourself la!!!" then by the time she realize she tried to cover up can see her face turning red then.... "bye Vicky! Bye Annad Bye ratih bye......."

In my heart.... "okay enough la mia stop it la your cover-up sooooo didn't work!!!" and by the way ya! It so didn't work! I think even Elise was giggling at her! Nie bukan terlepas cakap...terlepas menggatal! Ape saje la kau mia! hahahahaha

Then Mia get to knows this guy at work is kinda checking me out.It is kinda obvious la! He is from the front desk department. Hell yea! I was please with myself... hahahaha not until mia say " ya aini if u guys wanna go on a date, don't forget to tell him 'please put on your uniform yea' " its kinda true though... please dear God!! Not another AH BENG in disguise!!!

So we break-fast at Fish & Co. Actually only Fad buke... Me and Mia buke at my place eating Maggie mee... oh well since God give us "MC" so might as well make full use of it. After that hahaha we head for Swensen to get dessert!!! YUMMY!!!

When we about to leave Marina Square then I bump into the Library Guy!!! Actually we were supposed to go out together but then cancel. But then we still bump into each other. Oh well what to say.... "Fated!" he's with his colleague and so am I. okay ya what a coincident.

After we sort of acknowledge each other. I swear to God I was on cloud nine. I just wanted to jump around for God knows what reason!!!! I just wanted to carry on talking and talkin but then I pretend to be calm and then I was like "Okay ya see you around" step macam tak terperanjat and like
okay-ya-we-bump-into-each-other-and-theres-no-big-deal-about it attitude.
Mia was like..."woahhhh aini boleh tahan la!!! and yea soo cina okay la not soo... a lil bit!" and I feel damn good about myself yet again hahahah then Fad bimboticly say "aini! Die bole cakap melayu????" and mia was like "Duhhhhhhh!" and I was just too happy/excited to notice that they were talkin to me. I was as per usual, smiling to myself when the thought of him comes to mind. The rugby girls get annoyed whenever I start the smiling thingy. (esp when i get SMS frm the Lib. Guy..they will be like "AINI!! stop smiling to the phone la..the phone won't smile back" esp DD and Kai)

When he walk off...I don't know why it was soooo random, I had the sudden urge to run to him and give him a bear hug and then spank him and then run away to hide somewhere hahahahhahahhahahahahah

Astagaf!!!! Oh dear Almighty Allah help me to control myself and refrain me from all this kinda though... You know I wanna make this month of Ramadan worth while and keeps it at its purest

(hehehehe)

oh well

HAPPY SWEET 17 BIRTHDAY BLOSSOM / FADILAH

Uniform

2006-10-10T23:43:00.000+08:00

Work!

So yea I work at a place name Global Kitchen at Pan Pacific Hotel. The place is a coffee house by day and a semi-fine dining restaurant by night.

There's nothing much talk about actually. But I come to realize one thing for sure. Uniform can be the perfect material for a perfect a bluff! Trust me! Okay so I was sort of checking this guy out. Mia and I thought he could be one of the trainee chefs from Shatec. Mia kind of agreed that he look "Not bad/ok lah" in a manly way (which is very rare). So okay yea I kinda have to admit I never really check any one out at my workplace cause most of them are either married, desperate, old or gay.

In the hotel industry it's kinda obvious that you have to look /appear presentable at all times while you are on duty. Ok I continued checking him out. Well not until that unfaithful day when Mia meet him without his uniform.

Well sad to say.....he is just a plain typical Ah Beng that you would just go
"Oh My God what could he be possibly thinking to put those stuff on!"

After that you just wanna go....

"Kah Lo Leh! Kah Lo Leh! Kah Lo Leh!"

Ouh that's in tamil, in plain English it would be

"Oh My God! Oh My God! Oh My God!"

(ouh yea I learn that from work colleague Jega....cool kan! hahaha)

Guilty

2006-10-03T23:14:00.000+08:00

There's this banner that hits me to the core. It says:

Don't just be a Muslim,
Be a Good Muslim.

Yah! I felt really guilty.

Terasa babe!

Night Out

2006-10-02T22:34:00.000+08:00

I wonder what was I thinking meeting someone at 11.45pm. May be I just got desperate to break free from all the "obeying" and "keeping stuff to myself". I've been controlling and "purify" words that come out from my mouth. Bottling up all the emotion inside of me. I have to admit that I haven't been that blunt with stuff I said lately. I wonder why I've been paying extra careful attn with the nice words I said. Well, I've been using a lot of them lately. Though at times I don't really mean it(I am well aware that I am a nasty bitch). I don't know why I just want to please other people some much, just to give them that smile and enjoy some "self-satisfactory".

When I received the message from Library Guy to meet at 11.45pm. I didn't have any second thoughts. I didn't ask for Mama or Baba's permission. I was more like telling them that I am going out.

The moment the clock almost strike midnight I just rush to the door and gave Baba some super lame excuse why I need to go out. Knowing that he is on a wheel chair and mama is half asleep I kinda run out of the house (they obviously cant stop me).

We sat under the clear night sky surrounded by mountains of concrete. I shut my eyes. Felling his arm around me. Gosh! I didn't know being so close to a 'stranger' could be that therapeutic. Though it was for a short while but I can feel the calmness thru out.

chauvinistic bastard

2006-09-28T01:31:00.000+08:00

It's too good to be true!

Everything was so close to perfection.

Well not until I realize that he is a chauvinistic bastard........

http://brocantehome.typepad.com/photos/uncategorized/angry_cat.jpg

I am not in love

2006-09-21T00:02:00.000+08:00

May be this whole serial dating thingy,
is just not me.
But I like this way better compared to
the whole serious relationship thingy.

I believe when you are in a relationship,
there's too much hope put on the affair.
Hope is a wishful thinking, you know!
Full of uncertainty.
Relationship won't really help ME.

I think I am falling in love!
No! This is too crazy to be true.
This is just infatuation!
It has to be infatuation!
It will go away soon.........

I am not falling in love.
I can't be.
I don't even know how falling love is like.
That means I am not falling love theoretically rite?
Even if I am....No!
Live in denial, I will!

So now, I have to let this song out of my head!
The song is making me feel even worse.

Yes! I gotta let the song out of my head.
Then I can get over the whole situation and
pretend as if nothing happen!
Hmmmm....

__________________________________________

(Song title: I only want to be with you)
I only know I never want to let you go
'Cause you started something, can't you see
That ever since we met you've had a hold on me
It happens to be true
I only want to be with you

It doesn't matter where you go or what you do
I wanna spend each moment of the day with you
__________________________________________________

I think may be because I am a teenager!
That's why I am confuse with what I want!
Ahhh!!!!!

Likewise how I perceive this whole situation.
At times I want to express it in a way like how Daisy express it.
(Daisy Springfield's interpretation of the song)
However, at times it just get too....I don't know.
Passionate or obsessive ?
(Vonda Shepard's interpretation)

But certainly not in homo/lesbian way!

Feeling lucky or what?

2006-09-17T22:50:00.000+08:00

Reason why I should be feeling lucky

Nurul (my cousin) and I came late for a Singapore Idol road show but just in time to be greeted by Hady Mirza. Then while idling, received an autograph poster by Hady and free tickets to show
My team, Team Temasek (Tpiranhas 2nd team in the NTL) was complimented for an outstanding play despite being young and new to the game.
Scored a touch down against one of Singapore's best Touch team, Tanifaz of Wantoks
MVP for the second time
Chat with that Beautiful Stranger
Knowing that Library Guy is actually quite near to where I am working (I love the idea of knowing he is somewhere near me)
Have a nice and good looking French boss who likes the way I work

Reason why I should not be feeling too happy

I have to report to work by 6.50am everyday
The doctor suspect I cracked one of my rib
Jeslyn will resign from teaching at the end of the year

Beautiful Stranger

2006-09-14T05:13:00.000+08:00

Another sleepless night. No! I am not suffering from insomnia. I woke up at noon and then spent nearly 5 hours watching telly, so which part of it will require lot of hard labour? I think it's none.

So now, covered with quilt, accompanied by coca cola light, whole meal bread and cheese. My hand got gatal. Very gatal. I click my way into Friendster, going thru random profiles. Don't tell me its pathetic I bet you're guilty of it as well ya!

I bet Fizah, Hudsie, Syai and Miao wouldn't believe whom I "bump" into for the second random time... The Turf City Boy, his name is...okay let's think of a nick name for him just like the Library Guy hhhmmmmm....................... Beautiful Stranger.

The girls know I am totally not into this kinda of guy! I don't know about him. He is just too beautiful to be skip. He just caught my eye. The way we meet remind me of the scene when Aziz tried his luck with this girl on the bus, in the show Seniman Bujang Lapok. Then he end up saying "Sekali Bisu!" well okay that doesn't really depict the whole picture of how I meet Beautiful Stranger but there's some connection. Okay! Just the first part. Okay no! Just the smiling part and the fact that we meet on the bus! If last time I think Ibrahim (the sec 5 guy) or Helmi (Fizah most likely/ soon to be BF) is cute... Oh Man! this guy way way way cuter. If people think Farris (my ex bf) have beautiful eyes. Oh! man this guy has a beautiful face! I don't knw why I didn't blog about him earlier. Maybe cause I thought I will never bump into him for the second random time. Besides I was soo STOOPID to give my e-mail address when he clearly asked for my numbers!

For that STOOPID mistake I have to punish myself...
the punishment for being really STOOPID will be:
Bang my head against the wall
***Banging my head again the wall***
***Banging my head again the wall***
***Banging my head again the wall***
Roll down from bed
***Rolling down from the bed***

okay enough I think I have redeem myself...Things get even more weirder, I realize on his account it states "Damai" as his school as in Damai Secondary School?? Holly shit man! skali he stays near by. However, he is my fourth or third degree friend that means he is not directly link to my Damai sec acquaintances like Ijah, Nabeel, Ijat or even Iza. But whatever la, I just wanna bump into that Beautiful Stranger for the third random time.

So now, people Hail to the creators of Friendster for keeping one of their promise...
"Connecting People"

ohhh man wtf am I crapping abt.....just sleep la!
then may be I can meet him for the third time..
In my DREAMS!

Teachers Day

2006-09-13T23:25:00.000+08:00

I am just too lazy to do anything right now. Well, even to update my blog.
That's why I haven't been updating anything but yea okay now I'm in the mood of blogging..

So what happen to me hhmmm

Last day of exam... Teachers day
suppose to meet up with my ex-classmate but they had left the moment me we arrived so yea end up with the Triplets and Faezah. Meet up with the teachers.. Man! I didn't know how did they get so random.

This is what came out from their mouth..
Mr. Majid (P.E teacher who is also my family distant relatives)
the moment he saw me "eh kauuuuuu woah kau angkat besi eh?? Fuuh tengok tuu shoulder kau!"

Mrs. Tan KY (Add Maths teacher)
I was walking..suddenly she stopped me with full of passion she say to me "Aini you will make a very good leader! I knw you will" woah she said that to me? after failing ALL her Add Maths test plus exams.......I must be something la!!! hahaha

Mr. Muru (Social Studies teacher)He walked out of the hall while the concert was going on. I happen to be there. out of the blue "These people think they can sing (give the !@#$ impression)...eh!!! what you get for social studies?!?!"

Cikgu Salma (Malay teacher + our sch version of Miranda Presly from The devil wears Prada)
"Baik la Nur'aini selepas poly ape lagi..NIE la..jadi guru bahasa melayu.." Carrying down the legacy?

Ms. Rachel Abraham (DM)
I wish her happy teachers day and told her that I was scolded by her twice thru out my sec sch days and that her rules I have obeyed to for 4 year I did it willingly plus she is, inclusive of her voice is stuck in my head then she say to me....
"You will make a good mother. Your children will listen to you."

Mrs Mah Pow (Eng teacher)
While Syarfar and I was talking to her suddenly she pause and say "Omg Syarfah! Did you get your nose done or something?" Way to go Syaf..

How can I ever miss.... Jeslyn Lim (She is just diff frm other teachers)

me "Ala every Saturday at turf city see your face..teachers day like not special la. no more thrill and the 'missing-missin' part"
Jeslyn "ya la true! Hai yah"
Then later on when me n Nicole gave her the present that we share with yam supi hannan and ah poh..

Then only she smile at me as in real smile. The "happy-happy can not be count" kinda smile. I think she was expecting a gift la that's why. Hahaha

MS LIM "Eh outside BDS don't call me Ms Lim! Its Jeslyn"

Last stop in the school H.O.D office. Went to Mr.Roskhaider workspace. I used to seat there for hours after sch listening to his advice alaaa normal la about the me and imran situation after the break-up. I know my brain was exhausted that day since it was the last day of exam but what I didn't know that seating in front of him in his work area listening to his super lame jokes is kinda therapeutic hmmmmm...............

end the day with loads of food with triplets and Faezah "lepak-ing" at triplets place n watch some serious movie that we end up laughing at coz its lame!

If only Najma was there...The bitching will be more happening (I miss her) but instead God choose Farris (My first bf when I was sec sch.Sometimes he still scares the shit out of me) to be there.....
Oh Dear God, That was mean of you..............Oh well

As for now I have a new full time job that feeds me well
(thats why I have been busy and have no time to update my blog):

Potato Couch

That's it Library Guy

2006-08-27T00:54:00.000+08:00

Well, on 2nd thought..
"I think that is it!" with the Library Guy
Just go with the flow
I think
I am just trying too hard

Besides I need to read his game..
Cause I still don't quite get it
Sometimes he really turns me off
So for the time being
Good Bye Library Guy!!!!
(come back in few wks time...
if not..nvrmind! )
Hello Lecture notes!!!!

Dear Exam,
You make brain exhausted la.....
Love, AJ

Doctors are not that noble afterall

2006-08-22T11:04:00.000+08:00

Dad has been admitted to the hospital for the third time. Sometimes I kinda question the Doctors capability and sincerity (not their qualification). Well not all doctor, but those few whose suppose to "treat" dad. Whatever that came out from their mouth wasn't therapeutic at all..I bet I can feel sick hearing some of the words that came out from their mouth! It was that bad!

Not only were they "insincere" (because they try to appear sincere), they were arrogant too! I never really meet doctor who is quite like them. During dad's second stay at the hospital, Mum told this particular doctor (feel like mentioning his name, I think better not) that dad should not be discharge because not only that he can't walk but his leg was STILL in pain. He insisted that dad can be discharge for God knows what reason. Trust me it was UNREASONABLE.
I felt that what came out of his mouth was out of randomness, he said something like this
(bear in mind this guy has a PHD in "healing" people)

"Never mind la, discharge today or tomorrow no different what..."

If I was there, this would be my reaction,

"Ouch! Ouch! Ouch! Your stupidity hurts! By the way is that all that they teach you in medical school?! Discharge!"

The other doctor was even worse; the fact that made him a terrible doctor is that he is the head of "something-something" as well a specialist. He happens to be the "untouchable" type according to the newbie Doctor... What dad told us about stuff he said really turn us off, as a family... He walk in take look at dad's ankle then, same case what came out of his mouth was probably out of randomness.

"Okay Mr. Jurami, you should think about retiring."

Wow! That's like so freaking therapeutic Doc! Dr. Wong (our family doctor) advised mama and baba to be more upfront about their opinions and tell the TTS doctors off if they need to.

Now after mama and baba showed their "fussy side", then! they run some test and not only that, after the third freaking time of X-ray then! they realize that there's a broken bone at dad's ankle. We can actually sue them for carelessness and God knows whatever reason but I don’t think dad would go to that extend!

Those 2 Doctors at Tan Tock Seng Hospital really saddens my whole family. It really shows their standard of service. Do we need to show that we are fussy people then only they will treat us like "real sick people"?

Surprisingly the nurses are "the real deal". They seems to be the one that really want to see you well!!!

I come to a point where I perceived "the going the extra mile" campaign is simply propaganda for the whole world to believe on what is Singapore trying to do. Wait!!
I don't think that statement was a fair! For as long as I know the hotel industry, the retail industry even the F&B industry are working really hard to implement that campaign.

But I guess I didn't see it (poor treatment) coming from the Doctors!
What I learn from this whole process is really sad. Sad because I learn that doctors are NOT that noble after all! Now if anyone tells me about doctor being noble, (I know this might be an understatement)
but I have to say: Don't bullshit!

I think they should have more passion in what they (referring to the doctors that I mention above) do, rather then discharging whom ever they feel like because it seems to me that they are simply "discharging" their responsibility.

Having a crush on the Library guy

2006-08-19T00:39:00.000+08:00

After the break-up with iMRAN I thought of being bisexual..
Ala maybe because of the "give-up on guys" bullshit
But yea I GIVE-UP!!!!!!!!!!!!
I can't help it that I dont find anyone of the same sex attractive
or worse still sexually attractive..yucksss!!!
Not even a soul!!!!!
So much for the bisexual bullshit la Aini!
I swear I am a hetero!!

After a very long time..
I think I am finally having a crush (on a GUY!!! The Library Guy)
As in a serious one..I guess
No!! I think it's infatuation..
No!! I think it's a serious crush
No!! I think I can't figure it out...

Sometimes I think he is

such a sweet-talker that I wanna suck out his tongue like chupa chups
so sweet that I wanna eat up his head
so nicely dressed and so concern abt his skin that I think he is a homo
so annoying that I wanna "pop" him like a rugby ball
so tall that I can climb him like a ladder
so obsess with his bike that I assume while he masturbate
he even wonder if his bike is clean/shiny enough
(okay ew!!ew!!ew!!)
so well-mannered that I think his parents must have CANE him like
fuck if he didn't say "thank you" or "please" when he was a kid
so "Cina" that I can imagine him dancing para-para on his bed
so systematic that he arrange his shirt according to
the date of purchased
so nicely built, that I wanna grab his butt (oh yea!)
so law abiding that he never go beyond 90km/hour on his bike
so merepek cause he eat alot of kerepek.....wtf
(okay run out of ideas......................)

Sometimes I find myself thinking about him and I wonder why.
May be I just find him sweet
May be he might be "it"
May be I miss him
May be..ouh well the "MayBe" thingy will just carry on and on
I don't know to stop thinking about him or just to carry on

What if I am one of the hot stuff (ok super perasan-ing!!)
that he ask out to catch a movie with his buddies
What if my presence means nothing significant to him
or worse still means nothing..

Ok I think I am f_cking messing with my brain!
and I THINK my only problem is that

I CAN'T SWALLOW MY PRIDE TO TELL HIM

and I think for now I rather hold on to my pride
Oh! God I hope what I am doing is right...........

Weekend!

2006-08-13T11:54:00.000+08:00

This week, my weekend begins on a Friday. TGIF!!! I went out with the "Library-guy". My "Library Guy". He was quite an asshole when he just encourages me to eat all the junk food knowing that I am on a strict diet. But surprisingly, I had a good time with him. Not that I was expecting my "just another outing"/ casual outing/ unofficial date would turn out to be super boring. No! But it was just more then what I was bargaining for. He turned out to be "surprisingly sweet" for a very shy guy. Well I did not see that one coming! To end my day like a nice chocolate cake with a cherry topping on top, before I switch off the TV to go to bed, there, definasi lelaki melayu hot yang betul, Hady Mirza, (Hady Mirza needs to go workout at the Gym to make the definition more convincing) appear on my TV screen, wishing me "Happy National Day". Awww what a day...

Library Guy & Me @ Marina Bay

Saturday... what else? National Touch league (NTL). Since, Coach Marli decided to send a second team, I thought, "Hey this is it. My opportunity". My injuries are the last thing in my mind. I know I am not suppose to be playing but, what the hell this is something that I enjoy doing. Besides, I am playing for the second team. There is no what-so-ever expectation put on us so I have nothing to loose but a lot to gain from this whole competition. Just go and play have a good time and then learn something out of it and that is what I intend to do.

The Girls with Mr.Gilbert

Sunday it is just the bad day cause Sunday will causes my weekend to end! Can it not end! Sunday means I have to stay at home. The Baba's rule that Sunday is family day and that we have to do something or anything together. But when I am home I will start thinking way too much. For now: Sometimes I feel "out of place" when some one disappoints me. But what scares me most is that, what if I am the disappointment. Well, that's the feeling I always have when I am at home. I wonder where I went wrong cause there is always something that I do wrong esp at home. Other then my room, my home hasn't really been in my "short-term" list of places of where I want to be rite now.

My dad the metro

2006-08-10T02:11:00.000+08:00

Dad has been admitted to Tan Tock Seng due to some internal bleeding that takes place in his stomach.
So I am now more busy than usual.
However, being sick doesn't stop dad from being who he is.
Firstly, he still teases people.
Secondly, he still laugh loudly as if its nobody business.
Thirdly, he is forever talking about food and lastly,
being sick really doesn't stop him from being vain/metrosexual.

Instead of saying "take care" "come back tomorrow" or anything related to it to me and mum before we left, he chooses to say
"Eh!!! besok jangan lupa bawak sikat aku eh!"
I was like "WTH Dad?!"

Then to show his true "metrosexuality"
he say "Eh mesti ah besok orang nak datang tengok aku ape! Mesti la nak style sikit"
Then in my mind "Style????"

So that makes my dad not only the "Sick Dad" but also "The Metro Dad"
I bet u, if I can drive his car he will be asking either me or mum to bring his deodorant, facial cleanser, toner, whitening cream, chap-stick and God knows what......Oh! well........

Get Well Soon Dah-dy Dear!

Mama

2006-08-07T15:45:00.000+08:00

Sometimes the stuff comes out from my mum's mouth is kinda weird.
It makes me wonder, where on earth she will get that kinda idea.

Me "Mama, I might be out late this friday."
Mama "Kau nak pergi maner?"
Me "Come on Ma, I am 17 and its friday night..what do you expect?"
Mama "Ouh!"
Me "Mesti la bukan study group."
Mama pause for a while. She just stare into the ceiling.
Mama (in super-duper-maluver shock voice)
"Ouhhhh!!!! aku tahu...kau nak pergi CLUBBING kan!!!!!!"
Mama "Kan?! Kan?!Kan?!"

Well, now that Mama mention it. Maybe I should after all my 18th birthday falls on a Saturday night!

I am not what my age says I am

2006-08-07T01:05:00.000+08:00

Remember when we first meet?
You came up to me smiling asking for my name. Then pretend to ask for direction assuming I know the place well and as if you have "NEVER" been there before.

Oh well come to think about it, I think I like you better back then better.

Oh you! See what mess you drive me into Beautiful Stranger.

It's so frustrating for me when some one judges my intelligence or the way I think or act according to my age. I understand what is going on damn it!

I am no trying to say I am that smarter or intelligent or way too matured for my age but
hey! at least I know what you are talking about and I know I get it right.
You don't freaking need to "simplify" the "terms" you usually use.
The "terms" that you use when you are with your group of friends that share the same year of birth!

So what if I am still in school?
So what if am not legal?
So what if you are four to five years older than I am?
The point is I get your point!

If only he knew what I am thinking, then only I think he will pause to think!

Aargghh...

Guys will always be what they are 50% of what they really made of and 50% of "shitty-ness". Oh Dear, did I get my math right...?
The figure won't go that far anyway!

Camera Trick!

2006-08-06T20:16:00.000+08:00

I have always thought that I have this "thing" for photography....
Since I am still in the recovery stage and I am not playing for the school team in this year National Touch Legue so yea..I am doing the "admin stuff"...This week I volunteer to take photos... so here are some pics that I kinda like (in random orders)

My Personal Favourite

I feel that this picture portrays one of TPiranhas main trait which is:
Ferocious

Clinic session with Touch NZ

2006-07-20T16:49:00.000+08:00

13th July 2006

Clinic session with Touch New Zealand

So yea I sacrifice my one and half day allowance to go for this session. But what the hell, every single minute worth more then what I paid for.

The session with them was somewhat enriching for me. Though! It was so darn difficult to concentrate.

Before this picture was taken Hafizah was telling Coach Marli how hot the NZ players are suddenly when we were getting ready to take the pic.....
Marli "Hey Peter,my girl wants to take the pic with you"
Peter "Oh yeah sure!"
The Peter put his arm around Haifazah and Marli. Out of the blue,
Marli "Hey I think I wanna go to the front"
then she turn to her right and say to me
Marli "Eh! Aini aku kasi chance tu"
Aini pon apa lagi.......

Damn hot la, but ketiak bebulu!
Then here are THE reason why it was darn difficult for us to concentrate

They were half-naked most of the time. The ladies! Some of them are mother of two or three BUT they look damn fit la and tone..

I am so loving her tattoo! The tattoo actually tells her "life-story" so yeah every one will have their own..How I wish I can get one.

After the whole session, the girls was still not over with
"Oh my God that guy is freaking hot" "No no that one!" "Look at that!"
So yea we ALL stayed for abt half an hour to watch the NZ training session.
We were so busy/noisy pointing out the guys to an extend that NZ physiotherapist notice
Phsyio "So who are you girls talking about?"
Hafizah "Peter!"
Can't remeber who "Brad!"
Physio "How about you?"
Aini "As long as they look below 30 its fine with me"
Physi "Hahaha I like that one!"
The rest of the girls "HOiiiiiii Aini!" [at the same threw some stuff at me]

Coach Marli & Me

The convo of the day goes something like this
Marli "Oh! you all during training, like to take your own sweet time. Over here I can see the 150% effort. Hhhmmm!!!!!"
Aini "Ala Marli.You can't blame them, the guys are sooo hot that the girls can get orgasm just by staring at them. After that, they pay attention la wanna get more."

First day of school with crutches

2006-07-17T21:20:00.000+08:00

I self-declare myself to be the

The hottest girl that walks around school with crutches

I was taking forever to walk from home to the bus stop. So yea this is what I call "A Walk to Remember". It felt like the longest walk I have ever walked my whole entire life. I was taking forever la!

I know there's going to be eyes staring at me at school, so I put on my shades... the biggest one I can find in the drawer. "Eh Ain! Kau aper cerita sak dengan shades? Drama Queen!!!!" hahaha

Well, I don't care. I just don't want to be remembered as "the pathetic girl who got injured" and then receive attention due to it.
Prolly that's why I refused to ask for help. So I put on the shades hoping no one will recognize me. Well, it kinda works. I actually walked in the lecture hall sit down take off my shades then only my mates in front was like

"Oh My God that's Aini! Eh you OK or not?!"

"Yea! Yea! Okay-okay!" (trying to cover my face)

God knows how many times I have to tell and then re-tell the story about how I got injured until I got freaking annoyed, but looking on the bright side...

"hey at least they give a f**k"...Thanks mates!

After school, I meet my "most caring cousin of the year" Nana who actually accompany me to polyclinic then to physiotherapy.

(fake tired smile)

The physiotherapist said something about my right leg being longer then my left (and I don't freaking know for 17 years) so that's where the whole thing actually starts. The left side is so called overworked in order to function just as well as the right one. Then the only muscle that is still hurting badly is the muscle at my left butt. Guess what, I got a massage man. Yes! There, at my left butt and then she use some machine, ultrasound machine I think. Have to go for a follow up this coming Friday though.

I went back to school after that to give Coach Marli her watch. Aisya (the other coach) kinda forget that she leaves the watch with me on saturday. Then I went home and I somewhat forget that the watch on wrist isn't mine. At the same time I went back cause, I wanted to submit my excuse letter from touch rugby. Damn! Seeing the rest playing touch rugby doesn't help in making me feel any better. I just end up envying everyone one of them for not being injured. Just my luck! Another tournament is coming up and I...

I fucking wanna play (I hope the F word explains my desire). I come to a point where I realize that this sport have become my passion.
Oh my God what's up with that.

Ok I dont know but that's what I am feeling
(ew! hahaha)

Before I leave Nurul (one of my team mates) came up to me...
"Aini what does your t-shirt say? 'I am a wonder of the world' Hah! Yeah rite, with your leg like this?! Trying to make yourself feel better eh?"

I reckon, she is the only that notice the motive of me wearing this particular
t-shirt.

Injured

2006-07-15T23:22:00.000+08:00

My body was full of adrenaline.

The only thing that was on my head :

Proper three man punch out
Positive touches
Communication
Defend like mad

I remember runing like mad, though she was Syaidah's man. The moment I catch up with her, I smack her hard rite at her back and yelled "TOUCH!" . Then I feel the pain on waist. I know I can endure this but the moment I run, it came back. Fuck! not now please. "This is so not happening to me." So yea I continued running, then I realise. "No. This is too much!"

The next thing I remember, I was screaming my lungs out in pain while Poor Aisya was trying to "massage" me. I feel damn terrible. All I wanted was to play well and win. I want to win! That's all! But the pain! The pain is holding me back.

The next game when we were losing I was frustated with myself. The frustration was killing me within. How I wish there's something I can do for team. I feel so useless for the moment because the only thing I can do was..Whine about the pain. When Yam was "explaining" her frustation to Aisya and me after this particular game, I feel for her. The moment I saw tears in her eyes, I think I know how she feels. Its simple.
"I hate losing. I want to win!" I feel the exact same way.

My brain wants to reject the painful fact. The fact that I can't play for the rest of the day due to the injury. I don't feel terrible. I felt FUCKING terrible about it!

But there's nothing I can do about it. It's afterall my fault for not paying attention to the injured area ealier on.

The Girls manage to get into the semi-finals. Congrats girls!
and yea to the other team as well, You Girls were fabulous!
How I wish I could have contributed.

To Ah Poh & Syaidah thanks for "piggy-bagging" me all the way out.
To Aisya..Thanks for the "massage" & exposing my left waist all the way to my left upper-leg in public. I owe u big time!

Now, I am frustated with myself and the inury.
I just want to play beautifully and win!
I am just in hunger of wining and performing my best.

Get well soon Aini. You so need to train.

Sentosa Island

2006-07-14T21:58:00.000+08:00

Sentosa 8th July

Nicole's Sweet 17 Birthday.. Happy Birthday Babe!

Can u believe it? The last time I went to Sentosa was like 7-8 years ago!
So yea today I was kinda "jakun-ing" around la...
"First-time babe pergi Sentosa sendiri" ha-ha-ha kental
Thank God Faezah was with me..I miss having her around me..well she was with me
thru O'lvl..seating beside me in class..Now, we rarely we meet-up all because of...PROJECT!
I hearts u babe!

Then I bump into this guy from my course… Ham & I label him as "Purple" for a lame reason..There was this once he was like "stretching" in the LT..Then I happen to see his tummy n his purple underwear (waist area la!!).. on that Saturday.. Damn it was Faezah, Nicole's and my lucky day. He was walking around half naked..Just in his board shorts (and no purple under wear).. Then I come to realize that he is kinda hot la.. As in really hot minus the hair-do..Even Faezah was like "Woah! Aini! This is what u call hot..your taste of guys some how change over the year I am suprise".. Yes its true! At the same time heading towards the "right direction" I reckon. As for Nicole not need to say.. You guys can imagine how excited she gets..BUT!! I didn't mange to snap a photo of him or with him. He was busy playing Beach volleyball how cool is that hehehe. Now, at least there's something to look foward for during lecture

I love my tan-line! I love my tan-line! I love my tan-line! I love my tan-line!
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My Brand New

2006-07-09T19:25:00.000+08:00

My Brand New :

School

Diet

HomeGirl

Teammates

A Brand New Start to A Brand New Life

2006-07-08T03:33:00.000+08:00

Now this is it......
My brand new start
To A Brand New Life
Honestly there's nothing more I would ask for....
Thank You God....Damn! You are great!

COOL

2006-02-07T01:22:00.000+08:00

The day start of badly coz i recieve a msg frm iMran..so yeah for me anything related to imran means it willb related to my past n my past was something i wasnt proud abt..i expect it to be a bad day but thank god it wasnt..we meet up to settle some "government" stuff den i offer to treat him dinner coz it was his birthday few days before..it was akward for me then i kinda settle down a lil..so yeah everything went unexpectedly normal & simple..like friends we chat abt daily life n how we are sooo gonna screw o level..

I think i did ask permission for him to b honest n frank n if i am not misktaken he was alrite with it so yeah everything frm the heart went thru the mouth..i kinda told him off n he seems cool..i think he understand n he still remember that i am the expressive type..well everything abt the day was cool uh includin how not akward i was talkin to him..b4 we parted i did say something funny that made him smile/grin frm ear to ear..

"Now, that we're cool I think u dont need to worry abt something im" aini
"Worry abt what?"Imran
"U dont need to worry abt some1 shooting you rite in your head"aini
"huh! yeah rite haha"imran

I laugh as well but deep down in my heart i was like
if only we were at southside jamaica queens baby..u will take it for real
other then that everything i felt towards him was spoken

I think we are cool

Happy New Year

2006-01-31T01:04:00.000+08:00

Happy New Year to all my Muslim brothers and sisters..May 1427 Hijrah be a better year for y'all.

Girls Day Out

2006-01-26T14:23:00.000+08:00

Legally "Blonde"

Bad Hair Day

-------------------------------------------------

On Money Wasting Trip
a.k.a
Shoppin Trip

Window Shopper no more
(for the time being)

Honey

2006-01-23T01:23:00.000+08:00

Honey
you were my sugar, spice & everything nice

Honey
I love you
I f**kin Love you

Honey
I have been seriously in love with you eversince the first day i told you
"I Love You Dear"

Honey
I promised you
to love you
even if u're locked up till a quater century
to love you
no matter how chipped yor tooth is

Honey
I remebered the day when i say that
"I will love you till the day you die"
hahaha I did?

Honey
thank god u're dead
but i do regreat not tellin u how much u mean to me
afterall come to think of it i rather say it to your dead body
coz u knw i have an issue with pride

Honey
now u that u aint breathin no more
I am gonna say it to your dead face
I fuckin love you honey
I swear to god I love you Dear
Even when u're busy muggin
those cheap whores rite down at their pussy
you see i have love you all along

Honey
Though I love you
i was damn rite sure that i wasnt willing
to compromise my virginty for you
on the other hand at least you didnt die a virgin rite

Honey
I hope you're satisfied with me coz
i hold on to my words
to love you till ya last breath
no matter what

Honey
so now,
Thank God U're dead
so i dont look dumb waiting for ya
besides there wont be any pussy ass nigga to tease me
abt not being with you

Honey
i hope u're satisfied with me coz
i did kept to my promises
which is to love you till the day you die
so now u're dead
i am gonna walk my talk to get over you

by the way honey u knw i love you
n i knw u're a thug
so i guess u're not "the good die young" type

thats y i "loved" you
i guess

Shoes

2006-01-15T03:01:00.000+08:00

I went out with a Wrongly Accused Male Bimbo Ijat..
Coz he claim he isnt a metro when all along i tot he was one..sorry bout that Sir
Well I have always tot of him as the Bob Marley Version of Paris Hilton..
U knw the one who says "whatever!" "duh!" & goes to shopping pretty often just to catch up with the trend but at the same time still have dread with red yellow green rubber band all over him!
Okay the outing with him was nothing but stress free n fun duh! Thank God some1 like him still exist! May God bless him with lots of shoes some day!

But the quest that Ijat came up with while we were walkin outside Topshop really kept me thinking
"Aini how pairs of shoes do you have?"

Then only i realise that i have
one pair of trackshoe that is gonna be gone soon coz i have been using it for jogging n netball for the past 2 yrs
not to mention my smelly rugby boots
and the other one pair of shoe which is "pink" n its somewhere in the house

Then i come to realise that i really need shoes..that i can walk n run jog around with coz the only thing i have @ the "rak-rak kasut" outside my house is 5 pairs of slippers n uncountable pairs of high heels under my bed, under my parent's bed n out at the "rak-rak kasut"

Currently in search of new shoes! Any kind generous soul out there coz I have been eyeing on that La Coste shoe eversince...Well it will be nicer if u also get me the Channel Earrings but u knw anywhich is fine by me ;p

**blinkin**blinkin**

To my aunties, uncles or cousin (doesnt matter if u're at work,at home in spore or malaysia or san dieago) who are prolly readin this dont act like you dont knw how nice i have been this year...no bf no trouble no problem n really helpful..rite?! by the way its size 5 n a half

**blink**blink**

YAO YAO YAO YAO

2006-01-11T23:26:00.000+08:00

Havent had any chance to even to listen to 50 lately! I've been so caught up with "work"..but every time when i tell some of my friends that i am working they wld gimme this reaction like "are you fuckin kidding me?!" like as if i am some kinda of spoilt brat or something..yeah i knw that i am..but its not freaking obvious or anything..

n yah my cousin on my paternal side just got married during christmas..i havent really had any chance to talk abt it coz i havent really been goin online lately but yeah just for the update

i really like this whole wedding thingy..it really brought us together as a family..the best part was that things btw me n nurul..we are so much diff rite now..better la in other word..i really hope it remains this way...we are talkin hahaha

so okay over abt the wedding part..on my maternal side..haha things can not b better..during hari raya haji..dina singin, everyone's laughin like nobodys business ahh love them more then ever..

dina's version of the song januari

Kasihku sampai disini
kisah kita jgn tangisi ke-a-a-nya
Bukan kerna kita berrrrbeda
Na Na Na Na Na Na Na Na Januari
YAO YAO YAO YAO...............

"tasta" chick / mak senek

selamat hari raya haji y'all..may you guys have His blessin aite

Aint proud abt the past

2006-01-03T19:48:00.000+08:00

Okay it has been nothing but job interviews this pass few days..The suckiest part is that me and faezah will get the job that we dont like..but at the same time we havent been to any job interview that we actually like the job arrghh...

so today yeah..finally i get an interview at naj's workplace..there was me faezah n zulaiha..its was okay la.. i kinda like the job..but the first thing mama said when i callled her was that "eh ain bapak kau ckp jgn pergi interview utk jadi waitress!" i was like..y didnt u tell me earlier...duh..but okay wth i will just listen to her i guess

well today's meeting with zulaiha was kinda suprising..the last time i really had a chat with her was during netball trainin..but at that time we only talk abt all this netball stuff..but today wasnt like every other chat we had before..

actually i dont really like the convo coz it brings me back to those days when i hang out with those pussy ass nigga..trust me i wasnt a bit proud of it..i mean those days when i still do talk to zureen n depend on neelu for an advice n think that kamalia was the most soft spoken n kind harted person in bds..goshhh!!! i really dont mind sayin "hi!" whenever i bump into them but i swear to the Holy God i dont ever wanna be involve with them not even abt the simpliest thing u can think of..i guess zul n naj will get what i mean..they seriously feel me

at the same time it was great how zulaiha sord of blend in with me n naj..when we were bitchin ard abt some pussy ass nigga which i really hope they die of std..i really wonder how complicated their brain were..not only that they were tiny but the were not abit resourceful to our comunity..

then we went on chattin abt all these niggas who have the honour to talk abt us behind our back later on with much pride manipulate us but actully didnt really "have it all" to say it to our face well like 50 says it
"Funny how a nigga get the screw facing at me Anyhow, they aint got the heart to get at me"

Funny that they cant even be "real" for a split second..well i aint no longer gonna ever ever be bother abt these pussy ass nigga who aint only nothing but simply shit n dope

and to the trio who let the cat out of the bag abt thier non-virgin gf..i actually wanted to say
"May be they are cheaper by a dozen!"

China

2005-12-21T17:06:00.000+08:00

Back from Beijing!

Gosh it's freakin cold!

Now I am bloody convince that stuff in China are freaking cheap!

But damn it!

Well its not

for an unemployed jackass like me!

So to those who are expecting either a belated or an advance birthday present

I rather say

try to keep ya hopes down!

The V Thingy

2005-12-16T20:36:00.000+08:00

Like Naj has mention earlier...this "doing it" thingy..it really does disturb the both of us..

What is so cool about losing ya virginity?
Are there red ants in your underwear that you can't put on them for long?
or is orgasm just addactive as Farrer Roche?

It's not as if u need to pay a million dollar to say "No" to premarital sex..Trust me is wasnt that difficult..I know coz I did said No to it once before..n this people who are actually doing it..I dont know what is in their freaking brain..look i am not talkin about adults man..I am talkin abt kids my age..I am not sayin that I am the most innocent, angelic, well balance teens around.. but hey I wasnt playin with my vagina when I was 13 or 14..

Gosh I dont think some of these guys even know the meaning of "Statutory rape" or "Carnal Abuse" is and they are already having sex..n some of this guys..I some how think they are paedophilic..so their victims are usually girls age btw 13-16..if this were to continue may be we will be lack of "anak dara sunti" around..however, the guys are not the only one to be blame.. the girls are just as bad..the other day one of us (me/ naj) was chattin with one of our friend..he did it coz his gf was all "geared-up" for it..then he said " I don't knw sia..We did it! n now i have to stay with her.. but I my feelings towards her only 50:50"..at fist I laugh so hard coz that girl barely have any boobs but then i SWEAR TO GOD my jaw felt as if it drop down to earth when i inform that she wasnt even 14..gosh i was still watching nicklodean when i was 14!

So much for the "save yourself for marriage" campaign and the sex education thingy..it seems as if its a wasted effort..sometime i really wonder what their virginty means to them..n virginty is not the freakin way to show your commitment to your partner..isnt it?! n if u think u're in love n u can foreshadow that this is goin to be person u are gonna marry..gosh i think u shud do a reality check n start including God in your plan!

whenI hear this kids are Malay/Muslim i some what felt humiliated! though they are not related to me..i knw prolly some of u guys think i am talkin cock coz u might have seen me holding hand or kissing with some of my ex (3 of them in total) n i might not be the most innocent untouch girls around but hey i did my weighing..until when? i am gonna do this shit! at the same time i am not being prejudice to all this non-virgins out there..well all i have to say just pray hard that yr future spouse can accept the fact that u're not a v but first pray that Allah swt wont include that sin on judgement day..

I dont why i am typing abt this stuff prolly b'coz it disturb me n leadin me to feel humiliated..or may b coz I felt insulted when one of my guy friend said
"u mean u are still a virgin?!"
then i ans
"what do you expect? just b'coz u think i am a bimbo that doesnt mean i am not a V..I am still one n i am f**kin proud to say it..that i am a virgin"

gosh when are they gonna stop f**kin ard?!

Bimbo #2 Taking up the Post

2005-12-16T14:56:00.000+08:00

You could even call me B2... lol...

By the way for those still clueless it's Scream aka Naj.
At Aini's house and waiting for the cramps to subside.. Haiz red light red light

By the way Ain.. I want some cute stuff also from Beijing... Teeheehee... No kidding man she's got like 500 of that Mao money.

Speaking of cash, I've noticed that everyone's been short of it lately.. and I mean short of it. Like broke... especially me. Now that it's holidays I'm really feeling the painful pangs of having an empty wallet... especially when walking around Far East. Sheesh. To top it all off my grandma now has a nicer phone than me.. like insult of the year.

Oh btw new revelations..

this whole V issue is bugging me out.. othersiwe known as statutory rape as far as BDSians are concerned. I mean i do keep quiet when i hear couples who are for sure aware of the consequences of 'doing it' actually do it... but what about the couples who have barely reached puberty... mentally?!?!

Come on!! As Cured says, these people's mothers are picking their boxers for them and yet they're pulling them off fast enough before you can say 'Alakazam!"

More scandal than you can shake a stick at... or something else.

ANYWAY... this topic is making me all flustered. Well i gtg now for THE JOB INTERVIEW so if anybody has any vacancies at their workplace give me a call.

Bzzt.

Suddenly 4C came to my mind

2005-12-15T04:47:00.000+08:00

The days spent muggin on our textbooks in the classroom till late evenings

The nagging we suffered TOGETHER..Side by side

The empty promises we made to come for extra classes

They are all fresh in my memory

I don't where to start if some one were to ask me what I remember abt 4C

may be its

-the Pei Hua eraser incident with Mr Song

-me screaming at the whole class abt the class cleanliness

-Ms Loo moodswings which we suffered most as we are her form class

-Juffri's ass munching jokes

-Izwan's dangdut songs n dancestep (which he transmitted to Trevor)

-Adilah vs Izwan braburning catfight

-Having 2/3 or triplets in the class

-couple of the class Aini & Imran which was later replace by Qian Wee & Ong Teh

-the fact that Imran frm 3C/4C will 4ever remain as my first love n my heartbreaker

-The Wife wannabe + Super loud +4 ever sms-ing/sleeping in class =Chee Sim

-The always SMILING & SLACKING Jazren (she will always pass..damn!)

-The suicidal classmate Hung EE

- The "Assalammualikum Malay Teacher"

-The "Apple times orange = apple orange" Add Maths Teacher

.......................................(Cant stop)

I just can't get them out of my head
I suddenly miss them
N our daily pow-wow

Class 3C of 2004

And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we're gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same
But when we leave this year we won't be coming back
No more hanging out cause we're on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don't have another day
Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down
These memories are playing like a film without sound

So if we get the big jobs
And we make the big money
When we look back now
Will our jokes still be funny?
Will we still remember everything we learned in school?
Still be trying to break every single rule
Will Trevor be the next Barney man?
Can we ever find a job that won't interfere with a tan?
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly

Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?

Can we survive it out there?

Can we make it somehow?

I guess I thought that this would never end

And suddenly it's like we're women and men

Will the past be a shadow that will follow us 'round?

Will these memories fade when I leave this town

I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye

Keep on thinking it's a time to fly

Netball Farewell Party

2005-12-13T23:44:00.000+08:00

Okay after 2 yrs I finally have a hell of a time during netball !

I have never really enjoy Netball eversince sec2 due to some reason

But the farewell party was great!!!

Thank You

Juniors,

Coach,

the funny merepek

Ms Chong &

our 4ever young

teacher in-cahrge

Ms Ng May Hong

Well for the first time during netball (after 2 yrs)

i really enjoy playing netball

i guess for the first time of the year i played well..

during game..

well at least better then i usually do...

one of the resaon y i really enjoy myself was may b bcoz of

the pple who turned up at the farewell party..

(Sorry Juniors I really cant remember ya name or even some of u

but i will try)

& those frm my badge..

are those i really appreciate

THANK YOU GOD FOR CHOOSING THEM TO COME!

They are for real!

The plastics didnt turn up to spoilt it

ALHAMDULILAH

They werent there to destroy it all

I knw they usually do

"Destroyin" my mood

or sometime the whole thingy

either by saying something or by their action

so yeah what a relief..

YEAH! yeah! YEAH!

N coach finally didnt scream at me

She sord of smile at me after some of my "nice" shot..

Some how she made me feel appreciated for the first time after 4yrs

The whole sing along, dress making, make-up thingy (girls will always b girls), catwalking, crazy eating & the 3kg chocolate cake was just

FUN!!!

(frm left)

My Same old Syarfah,

The Cheerful Nicole,

Captain Jazren..don't knw where she is lookin at

The Semangat Pose by Syairah

The Most Valueable player Nina

The Chubby Big Eater Syaidah

They might not be the coolest pple to hang out with in school accordin to some people

However, they are very well appreciated by me not for their looks, shape, or what they wear

Simply for who they are..

For sure they have a special place in my heart

They will always b cherish

i <3 Y'ALL

@ Our Unforgetable Secret Hide Out

Leaving on the jet plane

2005-12-01T00:07:00.000+08:00

Aite I am leaving today to KL.
Den goin to Beijing the day after next

I am not even gonna complete my one week attachment..
Alah short of one day only
Erm but it has been great though
Having non-uniform schoolmates
knowing what they are really like
by the way they dress...hah!

So yah manage to hang out with Naj yest
At least I am not gonna miss her that bad
Shud had meet Haikel also
Hope they will do fine

I am repeatedly reminded by

Haikel
To get him a Nike t-shirt

Ana
to remember how small her waist is
so i can get her jeans n nice shirt

Mira
Some pants that is abt my size
n long enough so she can fit in

the list goes on.........................

Hopefully my trip this time round wld b
Fascinating
coz
not only that we are going to c the Great Wall of China
but also
we actually goin there almost empty Luggage's n some empty bags
so that means
we are goin to

SHOP TILL WE DROP

All my bags are packed I am ready to go

I MUST EXERCISE

2005-11-30T02:30:00.000+08:00

The day starts of with Aimran's wake-up call
I think it was 5:50am when he called
To go for a jog
Meet him at abt 6:30am
(he havent put on his shoes when i meet him i dont knw y)

Thank-You God!
Finally, I get to knw some one who is still...
Still passionate abt EXERCISING!
Esp during this hols

Naj has been nothing but a catalyst for me
To gain weight and grow boncet
Seeing her face is like seeing a sight which says:
"Eat to live n live to eat! Good life means good FOod!"
Thats why I wont feel remorseful when
I order Pizza n finishin the whole thing up
when I am with darl Naj

So r Mama N Baba

Oh I actually walk today!
Finally!!!!!!!!!
No more cabs!!!

Walk all the way
to the Bedok Res. with Aeem
Jog abt 3/4 round den
brisk walk

Thank God, Aeem was there to motivate me
by joggin non-stop thru out
Like freakin "WOW!"
If not I dont think I wld even be "brisk walkin"
[except when i go shoppin]
I think i will b at home buat taik mater

Den i have to prepare for lecture
Coz I am now on this one week attachment at Temasek Poly
Doing Infocomm Technology
That is sooo not me
Arrgghhh Computer stuff is sooooooooooo not my kinda thingy!

(but the maths lesson fun)

Well whatever it is
Aimran, thanks! (dont knw for what..lemme think)
I think for being

one of the reason for me to jog
burn fats!!!!!

n trim down my boncet-ness!!!
I think i so have to do this again

For the Triplets..I am not being dishonest when i say I am boncet
I really am!

I have to execercise with or without anyone ard (eg.Aeem&Naj)

..:: Change of mind ::..
NAHHHH!!!
I think i will start when i get back frm Beijing...
ermm nanti2 la
KK insyaallah after my trip n my butt dont feel heavy

(GROWIN' FATTER)
I shall continue2 excercise -------------------------> I think go get soemthing
to eat

By the way guys this is Aimran or Aeem..freakin upclose..picture taken by himself when he was jakun-ing with my cam at Mac while studyin for our o's...This guy frm my neighbourhood la...Hopefully he can help me....

I AM BONCET !
I WILL TRY TO

STOP EACTING RECKLESSLY!

and exercise

Lesbian do get jealous when i stare at their "BF"

2005-11-24T23:22:00.000+08:00

I have counted. By far i have meet 3 lesbian Malay couples..

but today is the most interesting

Just now in bus 65..the malay lesbian couple was seating opp of me..smooching!!!

since they were seatin opp of me..so i just watch them..hey!! its more entertaining then tv mobile what do you expect..

[in a disgusting way i mean more disgustin then the part where they have to eat dead mice in fear factor]

so i just look at them/watch (not obvious la of course)

the guy beside me already got disgusted so he pretend to look somewhere and den closed his eyes

i just smile n pretend to stone while lookin at the "guy" once in a while

haha girls on girls..kissing touching each other..in public...ohh gosh..pls..

its still new in our community

but pls dont spread ard it

b4 i alight the "girl" cut cross infront of me so i gave her way

den i didnt turn ard.. just head for tamp mall

walked abt two steps den

i heard

"Bukan nye lawar sangat"

den i turned ard

n c them both holdin hand

the "girl" was staring at me

my first reaction

laugh my ass of man...........like damn loud

her eyes suddenly grew bigger

what was she thinkin...i am attarcted to her "man"

My goodness

i covered my mouth laugh out loud and smile (ear to ear)

den laugh my way to tampines mall

God damn it her (or his) boobs was obvious man..i think he (she) was wearin a sports bra

i can tell

n i am not interested in another "girl"

not even if they are male look alike HOMOSEPHIAN,

have the most sexual desiring fake pennis

i am still not interested

n i am still not attracted

YIKES!!!!!!!!

Still Laughin My Ass Off

Tok

2005-11-04T23:30:00.000+08:00

Its the second day of Syawal..Most muslim wld b out celebrating..but I have class to attend..

I didnt mind at all..The big O's are in couple of days

Besides I promised Ms Hoori..that I wld attend her last literature lesson for the year..

After lesson I hang out with Faezah, both Sya (syarfah & syaidah) & Naj at the sch canteen

then Me n Naj head for Mac to meet up with Haikel...

Den Mama call n said "Eh! Ain dtg la hospital Mama da on the way na tgk Tok"

which means "Eh Ain, I am headin for the hospital to visit Tok. Come n join us"

Since Tok (Grandpa) Salimon is the nearest figure of a grandfather I ever have in my entire life

I wldnt mind at all

He is my cousin's (Nur, Nana & Danial) grandfather

Besides during the kampong days he used to stay side by side to my late grandparent's

He is a funny chap..I like his jokes..which werent suppose to be one

when I reach Changi host. I head straight to the flower shop

So many flowers...den i dont knw Tok's favourite colour...so keepin in mind

the first question i am gonna ask kakak nana is.."what is tok fav colour?"

Den drag her down to buy tok the most expensive flower i can afford..hopefully to cheer him on

when i reach lvl 5..the elavator doors open..Bek Bak (nana's dad; my uncle) greeted me

den kakak nana came out frm the ward main entrance

den I ask "sal?" or "why?"

"Tok da tak de" or " Tok is no longer ard"

I take a few mins to absord her statement den

tears flow down..den i relise that isnt the quest tt i is on my mind

I cried...............................................I find it so difficult to stop

Ouh ! this Eid starts with a death...

This wasnt the Eid that I have imagined
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Al-Fatiha to Haji Salimon who past away today at 3:10pm(estimated)

May Allah S.W.T Blessing be with him

Takziah to all his Children, Grandchildren & Great Grandchildren

May his soul rest in peace

My adopted pet..its head can rotate 360 degree! Serious..Play with it

2005-10-28T00:59:00.000+08:00

adopt your own virtual pet!

Speak of the Imran's New GF

2005-10-21T18:13:00.000+08:00

I remember vividly the day i set at corner of the staircase..Feeling miserbale bocz i found out imran found my replacement rite after a wk we broke-up...n nicole was there..tellin me to calm down..n she said...aini i dont knw y imran is like that towards u..but all i can say that new girl in his life is nothing like u...n i dont knw in what aspect is she way different frm you...i just knw that info frm imran that she is diff frm u....

well now, since me n imran's new gf..iza is now talkin...as in like talkin to each other...i kinda get all those quest ansed...we might have some common interest but the way we deal with imran is so god damn obviously diff....now its crystal clear 2 me..one of thing i realise abt me n imran was how equal we were....but their relantionship...its kinda obvious to me how imran has the upper hand....n once she loses imran...she is not just lose him..but she gonna lose him and some whole lot of other stuff...well now,thinkin back i think the "girl power trait" tt was instill in me actully do both good n haem...the bad thing will be guys like imran will be put off by attitude coz everythin is like "balance" "equal" n theres NOT gonna be like "who's the man"..well lookin at it in a positive angle...hey GIRL power is uphold! Equality btw both sexes in my relantionship with imran..gosh! i made it sound so political

when i first had the convo with this iza girl....i dont knw to believe her or not..if she is NOT a liar den theres alot of stuff abt imran n my cousin nurul that i have learn...n if she IS...being untruthful to me....errmm let it be a burden to her on judgement day...coz i cldnt care less...but whatever it is..to me her motive will remain ambiguous for the time being..it really disturb me that she suddenly wanna be nice to me now.. suddenly wanna be my friend..y now..y now only u want to tell me all this...y not a year ago when i still can save my relantionship with him..well things always happen for a reason...i knw tt very well theres goin to be hikmah behind all this n i believe that for sure bcoz God is great he have everthin well planned for all of us

i heard imran hated the idea of us talkin to each other..well he shld actually coz his flaws really did surfaces....n its not only a few but theres tooooons...well no body is perfect....no question abt that...not only his mistakes..but my cousin also..nurul...all those things that happen when btw she n imran when i was in London when i heard they "bump" into each other..where they actually plan everything..woah!!! welll i learn the fact that they all good actors n actresses...ermm i ashame of what nurul did to me n how she manage to hide it frm me all this time coz i cant believe that i actually stood by her watchin out for her back and on the other hand she was eatin me alive..so much for sisterhood n family ties..BUT at the same time..i have no rights to say that i am ashame of my cousin coz i seriously DONT KNW if this iza is being honest or not..well let time tells it all..ermm honesty seems to non existance factor ard this pple i guess..so i cant tell who is honest n who is isnt....well anyway among them..there was this confusion which is..whether i am adopted or not..well..let me make this official..i am not even sure if i am adopted.. it doesnt matter coz my parents has brought me up as if i am their own

today, when i meet imran in sch..after my talk with iza...i no longer knw what to percieve him as...now "he is sham n he is scam" woah my impression of him really change over night...for abt 8 mths i battle it all out to get over him or even 4get him...but now it changes overnight...its like in blink of an eye..for now i have totally lost my respect for him n i see him as someone inferior n i dont even tresure the time we share coz i knw what he wanted frm me all along...n the word love wasnt even in the vocab of our relantionship..well mayb it does la..for the first year ONLY...everything after that was sham! n the huge mistake i did was to not stop loving him..even when i sense something isnt right...but now...ermm i think its impossible..i see him more of an animal who attacks his vunerable victims without feelin remorseful....but then again..i cant say that much coz its up to him to chose what he wanna be n do...hhmmm..besides like i said i dont knw if iza is telling me eveyrything truthfully or not...but i badly wanna believe all her bf bad qualities..opss i mean my ex bf also...well love is actually not blind..but we are just blinded by it

when i see iza..i badly want to believe almost everything she says..i conclude she is someone who is smart, a person with a heart but a lil bit naive n gullible..we just had an understandin n we found out how we were lied to..by imran nurul and all...well it doesnt matter to me now coz it already hurt me n i have recover frm it all..gosh she didnt even knw that imran n i just broke up abt a week when she started dating imran..woah so much for tust is base to evryhting when he actually is liar rite frm the start..honest...non-existance factor for their relationship i suppose...duhh..n now i cldnt careless.. i see her as how i see myself 2 yrs ago..carelessly, dangerously in love with imran (gosh i was sooo dumb !!) ..but thank God i was guarded with Iman...Praises to Allah swt...may she be too protected with strong Iman..so she wont do anything foolish..even if she does it already...too bad! well repent will be good for a start

at the end of it all i dont knw to believe if my cousin betrayed me or not..but i really dont want to coz i treat her like my own sis..i still hope she wont let me down again...but for imran erm...it doesnt matter..coz the fact doesnt change..that i have a lost a certain degree of respect for him..after the break up i still wanna continue to look up to him n respect him just as much as i use to..bcoz takin it frm a positive aspect..we broke up that doesnt me he is not a good person..but after knwing almost "everything" he did to me..all the lies the betrayal the skiming n cheating...i dont knw..i think he is more of a disappointment..but as time changes..i'll nvr knw...but may Allah swt blessin be with him...as for iza i just hope that she is careful while playin whit fire..coz i knw she wont let it go..just pray hopefully she wont get burn herself coz i knw the fact that she is semi-burned already

In search of His Blessing

2005-10-17T17:49:00.000+08:00

He is a sham
He is scam
He doesn’t deserve HE
For he is now an IT

IT is sham
IT is scam

For whatever we (Me & It) share
was just an act of façade
N whatever IT was to me
was just a play

For IT may have not been to a play
But IT have been a good actor
An act of valiant

That ate me alive

For I am not at all sure
If she is gonna be next

To be eaten alive

For I no longer care
Coz they have gone

To where I call
A lil bit too far

As IT may have dragged me
to a world I nvr belong

Thank God I wasn’t trapped
To where IT call home

In my perception

For IT to be a he

I don’t knw when its gonna be

Coz I think
The respect is gone

For IT to be a back
As noble as IT used to
I don’t knw when it is gonna be

Only time i guess....
Will prove what IT is
Worthy of

For her,
Theres nothing I cld say

But remind her of Judgment day

Repent wld be the only word

That I will be able to share

and Fisabililah will hopefully be the way

The way

To bring her somewhere

With the Almighty's blessing

InsyakAllah

Betrayal

2005-10-17T16:57:00.000+08:00

She was suppose to be blood

She was suppose to be protection

It was she who betrayed

And it was he who played along

It was me who was hurt

Thinking she was innocence all along

I got played out

N she did the acting well out

He was silence
Thinking I was dumb all along

He thought I didn’t saw it coming

when I didn’t say anything at all

But God is great and

He showed me their flaw

The greatness in Him
has not only shown me who they are

But what they are actually made of

For I am not sure shall I give you my respect

Of should I give you my hatred

For she is still my blood
And theres not denial behind the fact

For the both of you who betrayed me
Thinking I wont knw anything abt it

London wasn’t my mistake
But it was a step
to take off your mask

and show those ugly deeds of yours

Thinking I will not knw anything
But I knw it all

May His forgiveness be with you
For I don’t knw what I am gonna do

I don't wanna be

2005-10-14T20:08:00.000+08:00

I'm surrounded by liars everywhere

I turn I'm surrounded by imposters everywhere

I turn I'm surrounded by a identity crisis everywhere

I turn Am I the only one to notice?

I can't be the only one who's learned

I don't want to be anything other than what I've been trying to be lately

All I have to do is think of me and I have peace of mind

I'm tired of looking 'round rooms wondering what I gotta do

Or who I'm supposed to be

I don't want to be anything other than me

Artist: Gavin DeGraw

Harapan ku utk Ramadhan kali ini....

2005-10-02T23:40:00.000+08:00

Setapak demi setapak
Aku melangkah ke dlm bulan Ramadhan
Dgn harapan
Ramadhan kali ini akan lebih bermakna

Imran yg ku harap membimbingku ke arah Tuhan
Telah pergi
Pergi dari hidupku buat selamanya
Melukakan hati kecil ini
Hingga tidak dpt diubati

Mengingati kembali kenangan kita bersama
Melalui apa dikata Imran "zaman bahagia"
Diringi dgn
Pelukkan Mesra
Ciuman Kasih
Sentuhan Nafsu

Aku
Aku yg sanggup melalukannya
Atas nama cinta...
Memburukan kaca yg kusangka permata
Mengejar batu yg kusangka intan
Mempercayai racun yg kusangka janji semanis madu

Setelah pemergianmu Imran
Baru kini kesedaran bertapak
Baru kini keinsafan kujung tiba
Cintamu yg bakal ku tinggalkan selamanya
tidak pernah menjanjikan kebahagian abadi
Hanya keindahan yg melalaikan
Keseronokannya melekakan
Kebebasan yg menjadi baja
Yg menembus benih-benih ego
Yg mencabangkan benih-benih keji
Di lalang peribadi in.

Bersama Imran
Diri ini lebih rela dihanyut arus dosa
Walaupun ada tangan-tangan bersih
Cuba menyekatku dari terus melangkah
melangkah menuruni lembah maksiat
Aku angkuh
Aku tepis tangan itu
Maksyakallah..........

Kini diselimuti dgn sejalur keinsafaan
Aku hanya mampu berdoa
Oh! Tuhan
Aku amat takut hendak berdepan dgn mu
Didlm keadaan sedeminkian
Suluhkan hati gelap ini
dgn sinaran petunjuk Mu
Agar aku punya waktu utk mengabdikan Mu
dan terlepas dari sumpahan Mu

Syukurlah Imran ku syg kau pergi
Agar dpt ku rasa diri ini jauh dari dosa

Ya Tuhan
Lengkapkan aku dgn senjata yg cukup
Utk ku berjihad menentang syaitan
berjuang melawan iblis
Berperang dgn nafsu

Semoga diriku ini yg dikotori dgn dosa
dpt dibersihkan dgn taubat nasuha
Disertai dgn cahaya keimanan
Dicurahkan dgn bunga-bunga amalan
Ajar dpt aku menyediakan
Diri ini utk Ramadhan

Dgn harapan agar Ramadhan kali ini akan lebih bermakna.............

Insyakallah

Friday

2005-10-01T00:58:00.000+08:00

Well I think now its kinda obvious that Friday have to be my favourite day...I will always do "something"..
So i went to Swensens with Faezah..just to eat ice-cream when theres the ice-cream man at outside our sch practically everyday..but the ice-cream ermmm sinful man..power..mcm da 10 tahun tak mkn ice cream say..after we ate we walk n i think i bump into Imran's gf..i wanted to approach her but nah what the hell am i gonna say..hi hows my ex bf doing? or hi i am Aini ya bf ex?so nah i rather not open my mouth coz i knw its gonna be full of scarcasm and on the other hand me being me..its too much of pride..y wld i approach her when she is dating my heartbreaker...ceh.. haha no connections sia...wtf man..but nah just didnt feel like talkin

went home ya just chill la did my weekly facial..main objective..try to remove all the leopard spots on my face..den Haikel called..well he plan the whole thingy so we can play basketball with Aimran...haha..that Aimran one in a million kinda guy...coz the first thing that i like abt him is not his ass/butt (haha wicked sia) but the way he recite the Holy Al-Quran..Maksyakallah..hebat sungguh...his voice kinda diff la..so ya play basketball for the first time just now kinda cool la but nothing will beat rugby n touch..well over the week i manage to knw more stuff abt Haikel n Aimran..they obviously love the game so much that i see no possiblity in spreadin my love for rugby..haha

well while we were chattin/playin basketball theres 2 things abt Aimran that appeals to me..
its when he said these 2 sentence ah (at diff instances)
1) "Ouh nari mahgrib pukul 7 satu minit"
I was totally malu say..coz i just say i am goin home b4 mahgrib..den he gave me the time..i was like.woah this guy ought to be a good man..ceh pade hal waktu solat aje say..but the way he recite the Quran can be another point...ouh wow...
2) "Love is not a come and go kinda thingy"
He knws his shit..(no connection wtf) he said that when haikel asked him if he's attach..eh i find this kinda guy cool uh..then he asked me then how abt u n i said nahhhhhh..n he gave me that killer smile..den i say la i feel for u when u say that..then on the way home the sentence kept in repeating ah..i dont knw why sia..but i feel that every word of that sentence is true n have deep meanings...

new pple in my life hahahah..n they are kinda diff with the recent pple i knw currently haha wth

The Prefect Description

2005-09-19T23:49:00.000+08:00

the best pic to describe my end of term break..had crazy fun with my family members and special visit frm Umar..In this pic..me n dina celebrating Ayo's birthday..haha.. In the state of "geram ness"

2005-09-19T23:48:00.000+08:00

The Perfect picture to describe my prelim week..super duper maluver shitty

Discovery of the week

2005-09-03T18:46:00.000+08:00

Woah this whole week has been nothing but full of discovery..

i think if i were to compile all my discovery..

and make it into a show like "RipLeys believe or not"..

i think i can make at least 4 episode hahaha

n all of my discovery are full of irony!!!

things that i thought shouldn't be happening

Man i found out that some my classmate can argue over dope CLASS SHIT

when they are suppose to be in SECONDARY FOUR

then everyone got so personal

n sord of more pple get involve when its suppose to b abt me n shamira...

n of all things.. it has to be abt the dopest thing i can think of..

abt teachers day hangin thing...gosh how lame...

thinkin back i have to agree with neelu..that the whole thing is soooo drama

until tears..screamin at each other..bringin up abt the past arguement

super lame...n i cant stop laughin at the level of lameness
we actually have to got thru

thank god i wasnt dope enuf to cry or scream until my whole face turn red

over this stupid thing

the next thing is more irony la...paradox la.. Contradiction!!!!

for an instance,

its like gossip girls of bds dont want to accept that

the other name for them is gossip monger..hahaha

it goes like this

a girl in my class told faezah that i kutok n say bad things abt her to people

abt her dressing etc...n she sord of fuck-up by it la

she complain n complain to faezah sayin

woah aini ingat die supermodel pe....

she kutok my dressin....like what

you see ar your friend faezah...

coward ar dont knw how to say face to face....

den here come the irony part

this girl must have some how live in a different world la

coz i am not even bother to find out her hp number

what on earth makes her think that

i wld b so interested to knw what she is wearin

how bad her fashion taste is

or worse still who did she borrow the clothes from

another contradiction will be..among all the people she point the finger at me

when i dont knw alot of shit abt her

despite knwing so, what makes her think that

my life is so boring that i wld love to spread around her secret

haha what the fuck..gosh plz la my life is much more interesting

den talkin abt her...

n worst still..i am not even saying things u knw BUT i am told by pple of what i said...when i dont remember sayin a thing

Oh yeah..the other thing...Adidah pass by my class on monday

b4 my class dramatic incident..the one we argued abt the hangin thingy

she walked pass our corridor then she say no i mean she shouted

"Ehhh! Aini you watch your mouth!!!!"

i simply can imagine the GGGRRRR!!!...like a lion tone when i read tt line

den i was wonderin was she deffendin adilah...i wonder for what

den i think may b suke2 la cari psl..

i just told adilah

shud anything happen to me i am gonna bring it to the office

n once the office gets to knw abt it...

i am gonna make sure i am gonna make it a big issue..

but the irony part is that i wasnt even disturb by the whole thing

am i cold or what..coz i totally dont care

but for her actin that way its normal..adilah is her twin sis god damn it
who wldn't love thier twin...the usual protective sis act
man i wld do the same thing should anyone harm my twin babe

the other irony part is abt me...

why i dont care..i mean like..am i heartless or what

well i dont think so coz i just donated $5 to an old lady

den whats up with me...y i dont give a fuck?

even when pple say i kutok her when i knw nothing abt her

n i dont care when some one just threaten me to watch my mouth

what is happenin to me hahaha

but i think i like it this way..well i have my mates n scream aka naj

or mayb i am simply

So God Damn Cured

why think abt pple whom have something bad to say to me and abt me

gosh..so full of irony when i dont care abt what pple have to say

i think i have pick naj habit of not puttin pple opinion in my top priorty

well if i really were 2 put it on top of my list i wld b making a list n start callin pple to not get the wrong picture like what shamira did the other time....

WTF....hahahaha..everyhting is full of dopeness

Faezah Birthday Party

2005-08-27T23:44:00.000+08:00

Happy 16th Birthday to My Dear Faezah

Okay Adilah N I plan out a birthday party for Faezah...

get all her best bud to come together to do it la...

den seperate the job

I plan out the whole thing plus taking care of the money..

Adilah get the vanue plus discount...

Abaish get the present plus collect the money

Izwan wrap n become karang guni man plus in cahrge of tangkap LIPAS

(workin under him will be adilah & faris)

the rest help to make the celebration a meaningful one for faezah

woah it was really hard la she kinda get the hint la

but thank god she didnt really know until she realise theres was cake n roti john

Saying Happy birthday

Okay so we still can call it

A Suprise Birthday Party

the best part was that

she cried..she was too touch by us

God damn it..i feel so glad she was happy...

Had a really good time yesterday

Damn fun!

2005-08-27T23:42:00.001+08:00

Happy Birthday Roti John Specially for our Dear Faezah
Happy B'day Faezah

2005-08-27T23:42:00.000+08:00

Happy B'day Faezah

2005-08-27T23:40:00.000+08:00

BITRHDAY GIRL
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2005-08-27T23:38:00.000+08:00

She just finish crying..toooo touch
Happy B'day Faezah

2005-08-27T23:37:00.000+08:00

Faezah : Woah all for me uh...sob sob
Happy B'day Faezah

2005-08-27T23:36:00.000+08:00

Suprise!!!!
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2005-08-27T23:32:00.000+08:00

Food Food everywhere
Happy B'day Faezah

2005-08-27T23:31:00.001+08:00

Tryin her best to finish the food
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2005-08-27T23:31:00.000+08:00

Tak Habes2
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2005-08-27T23:29:00.000+08:00

Izwan...Gelojoh
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2005-08-27T23:28:00.000+08:00

Rajin Abg Faris kite
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2005-08-27T23:25:00.000+08:00

Hello Kids..its Barney
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2005-08-27T23:22:00.000+08:00

Proud Owner
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2005-08-27T23:21:00.000+08:00

Faezah : they must love me alot man..thats why my present is so god damn big...Early Stages...
Happy B'day Faezah

2005-08-27T23:19:00.000+08:00

Syairah :Pelan-pelan kayoh la faezah...
Happy B'day Faezah

2005-08-27T23:17:00.000+08:00

I bet she is goin to take 4ever
Happy B'day Faezah

2005-08-27T23:01:00.000+08:00

This is goin to take some time
Happy B'day Faezah

2005-08-27T22:59:00.000+08:00

Hehehe present so big
Happy B'day Faezah

2005-08-27T22:58:00.000+08:00

So much for ya balls..haha
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2005-08-27T22:57:00.000+08:00

EEW..Lipas
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2005-08-27T22:56:00.000+08:00

Huh the present so small.. I tot big...
Happy B'day Faezah

2005-08-27T22:55:00.000+08:00

Penat
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2005-08-27T22:54:00.000+08:00

Woah Finally!
Happy B'day Faezah

2005-08-27T22:53:00.000+08:00

And a bottle of LIPAS!!!!
Happy B'day Faezah

2005-08-27T22:52:00.000+08:00

Frm Aini
Happy B'day Faezah

2005-08-27T22:51:00.000+08:00

Eager to knw
Happy B'day Faezah

2005-08-27T22:50:00.001+08:00

Jigsaw
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2005-08-27T22:50:00.000+08:00

Finally...
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2005-08-27T22:46:00.000+08:00

Figuring out the bday massage frm the Triplets
Happy B'day Faezah

2005-08-27T22:45:00.000+08:00

Eh! Aini I finally 16 u knw!
Happy B'day Faezah

2005-08-27T22:42:00.000+08:00

My Hunny bunny...we were like fuckin glad la it all went smoothly..we are the mastermind
Happy B'day Faezah

2005-08-27T22:39:00.000+08:00

Eh cepat die tgh tak sadar tu...
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2005-08-27T22:32:00.000+08:00

Waiting for the time to.....
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2005-08-27T22:29:00.001+08:00

PLan A or Plan B?
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2005-08-27T22:29:00.000+08:00

Habes Faezah
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2005-08-27T22:26:00.001+08:00

She wanted chocolate..She got it!
Happy B'day Faezah

2005-08-27T22:26:00.000+08:00

Video Clip ala New Boyz..eeww
Happy B'day Faezah

2005-08-27T22:24:00.000+08:00

Faezah hows the air down there?
Happy B'day Faezah

2005-08-27T22:17:00.000+08:00

Attempt to save the pancet ball
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2005-08-27T22:12:00.000+08:00

Izwan save the ball..AWW
Happy B'day Faezah

2005-08-27T22:11:00.000+08:00

Ketinggalan
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2005-08-27T22:10:00.000+08:00

Time for tubby Bye-bye
Happy B'day Faezah